To you who may concerns

Have you ever felt regret losing the people you lost ?

Or have you ever wanting to undo things you did ?

As people come and leave our lives, we watch them grow happy, happier than when they were with us. Sometimes we start to wonder, perhaps.., perhaps..if we were still together, we would be as happy.

I guess, it's true that when we let someone "in" our lives, they never really leave.

Even when we are no longer a joy for them, even when there were too many pain in between, they stay, in that particular part of your heart.

Well, it's not that i am sad that they are happy now.

It's just a feeling, a feeling about being un-special, the fact that we are now one less special for someone who used to revolve around us, as if we were the sunlight to them.

They said it's the pain in the past that holds me back, well it is partly true, i can't deny the fact that when people say 'happy ending', that one particular person still comes to mind. Because, my heart settled the longest for that one person, my heart once thought that one person would be the last, tho, i did mistakes, that person did mistakes.

Of course there is no more 'what if's for us, because if there were one, it would have happened. But because it weren't meant to be.., it should stay there.

The memories, the fact that happiness was once mine, are going to stay there in the corner of my heart, like i said many times.That one person will always have a special place in my life.

And i hope the search ends, and perhaps that one person can finally be happy now. 

And, i, too, am happy.